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YES BABE IT'S BEEN EONS.
& YOU SHLD KNOW I MISS YOU TOO.
my darling ass partner.
anyways, i swear im turning gay.
been having too many lesbian dreams.

save me.

meet soon & you know i love you ((:

for t12-vers & others.
pictures are here

a very time ago.. we made a pact that never came true
in depths of the night, i thought about you

bu kai xin.

so his last words were 'fuck you'
to that, i feel no remorse.
just sheer delirium.

oh, its JAFAR


deng ((:

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take care ((:
i'll see you in less than 6 months.
love you*

we were too cute,
i still refuse to see you.

lil ms evil
I DARE YOU TO!
i'll make sure humpty dumpty comes off the wall.
if i ever find out that is.

omg, we changed seats? COOLIO BEANS.
ptm was horrid.

and yes i shld have went for the fcuk test.
now i gotta take alone.
omg. studying sessions are so not funny.
i just woke up.
GROWL.

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tocks!
could you pls tell alvan
that kim is in love with him.
hahas, anws. when i master the skill
of icing on the cake. i WILL
bake for the class ((:

etchplanation is still stuck in my head.
econs was crapped. everything that i tried to learn
didnt come out.

tuesdays are tv night! hur.

and somehow the more i think abt what mcron said.
the more i agree with the change.

i need to rant rant rant.

u know what,
i give up.
one week on agriculture geog.
and i fcuking forgot everything.
humangeog is just not in my blood
and no matter how much i try
it will never be part of my life.

i'm just gonna throw geog away and hope to get
an a for econs and start working on math.

sigh.DEMORALIZED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIGH

nothing beats studying at starbucks.
i feel like sleeping again.
i woke up at 8 am. slept at 10 am
woke up again at 2 pm flipped through
urban geog til 5 pm back to bed at 505pm.

nights.

most people will probably say..
that's the most stupid move you can ever do
and for crying out loud, why?! after all that has happened
are you going back to a person that can only bring
you more tears than happiness... more harm than good..
more damage virtually and physically..

most people will probaly say...
you'll be fine on your own.

yea, i'll be fine on my own, no doubt.
and somehow if i do.. i know it's gonna be forever.
it's been 15 weeks.. & it has made me realize..
that guys are honestly all the same..
they just come in different sizes and intellect,
but ultimately they don't differ.

so.. i'm back with disregard & disrespect.
everything somehow seem to have fallen back into place.
everything's back to being the same, again.

stupid i may be, but it'll be more stupid if i still insist.

(: day one has been goin pretty well.
ran for 1 and half damned hours.
covered half the golf trek.
it's so pretty in the morning.

air's crispy and the sun's just right.

but decided to make a detour back home,
hoping that someone will ask me out.
and stupid giving me excuses that scream infidelity.

ah. i shld be studying.
all i've done the whole holiday is agriculture
and i'm not even sure of it.

sigh. i foresee sleepless nights and thick heavy eyebags.
say hello to the morning zombie of the 20th century.

change change change change change

pls stop calling me by my birth name.

so do you

was REALLY bored and had virtually nothing to do.
so sam and i, amidst our angsty-ness, decided to finally get our piercing done.
why i did do it..? i had no idea.
i guess i'm just really really bored.
and it was less painful than i expected it to be.
dang, why cant just blood flow and make me a painful happy being.
rather than let life ridicule me this well.

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summer has gone.

omg.

what's wrong with me.

like.. eww.

had a train..
a really long train of nonsensical rants.
then i read sth.
& maybe, just maybe.
life isnt that hopeless afterall.

thanks cookiemonster.
thanks lil dimi.

the friends you made when you were 14.
are the ones that you keep for life.

im really tired.
even an elastic band will snap someday.
even Jesus would sigh.
and i'm only human.

i hate my home.
no one understands that
pple do live behind a mask
and smiles are just facades
we hold up.

i need to fly.
love is an non-existant emotion.
even if it is, it's fleeting.
it's plastic.. it's never meant to be.

i need to breathe
trust is just another 5 letter word
that has no deep meaning to anyone anymore
it starts with a t and ends w a t.
its used so loosely.

i tried my best.
met the wrong people.
lived life dangerously and so carelessly.
broke every extreme of perfection.
tore my world into pieces

i...

have to call someone whom i really dont feel like talking to
belong to isolation where i've been in the past 2 days. oh lord. SWEET days
.... am too tired to go on.
but have to.

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past 2 days. have been schwwwweet.
GABBBB! (: hahas TAX-ED & relaxing grandstand times
mabel for the run.
Deeps for teaching maths (AGAIN)
a*v for being a constant boost
linc for stupid jokes
ash for reminding me of good ol' times.
1t02 for 'msn' nudging.

sometimes, school's fun.
othertimes... school just reminds me of the bad stuff.